The Power within Me

I've to save my memories because many thigs that I left in my life. 2017 is most unforgettable year. So I want to write my 21 random things (21 for as same as my age) what I've got or what I had done. Check this out... Maybe you're one of my random (but special) things he he.. 1. Having a good trip on early 2017 (Bogor - Jakarta - Bandung) for 3 weeks and meeting new people there. 2. Going back to Jakarta in same year for doing Kerja Praktik. Having some grateful experinces to making a research in advanced Laboratories. 3. Finishing my awesome research than I ever think, about Rare Earth Metals. I thank to you, Pak Jarot, Bu Hanif, and all of perople that helped me. 4. Doing a trip to Puncak Cisarua, Bogor in the middle of sunday night. Thanks Nope, Sai, Hedy, Firman for granted my wish. 5. My most priceless team ever, Kementerian PSDM Kabinet Integrasi KM ITK. Having a chance to give something that I can do for KM ITK. 6. Having almost ...

Last two days, I felt nerveous for some minutes of my 24 hours in the middle of my research time. It was happening because my chatroom-group never stopped talking about our score that was coming out one by one. I felt so nerveous. How would God give me any lesson again? And finally I got it. God gave me more than what I want. He listen me very well. But human never loss for being wrong. I'm scary for being forget, who'g giving his permission for give my achievement. So I would take a lesson for everything I get. I had loved being busy for preparing my exam. I would give the best version of my every work. I would share everything that I had to my friends who need it. I'll try to keep it up. Sometimes, on the way, I was feeling desperate when I saw my friends achievement or I was on under my expectation. I was thinking to stop doing everything and felt nothing. But I was totally wrong. I obviously knew that God never fell asleep. He see everything and He know th...

Minggu ini adalah salah satu minggu emosional. Sebagai manusia yang melihat kepergian manusia lain, aku dibuat kembali sadar. Life is temporary. Death is truly exist, maybe It stands behind of you right now. No one can stay as far as they want. Yang berbeda adalah ia pergi dengan cara yang membuat aku harus berulang kali berpikir, "sesulit apa sampai semua itu tidak dapat ia lewati lagi?" He was a singer, an idol. I never felt dissapointed with her performs. He did everything well. Making ending with his death to finished it all, who knows? I like korean idol, so do with his group, Shinee  (not an addicted kind of kpopers) . But I was not claimed him as my fav before, because he was not as interest as I saw Key or Taemin. I was think like that until his death with his decision way. I'm doing falshback till I write this post. I'm watching his music videos with Shinee or himself as soloist singer, reality shows that invited him, and listening his songs ...

Pernah ngerasain saat dimana kamu melihat sebuah foto begitu lama dan seluruh perasaan terhadap orang orang di foto itu terungkap di waktu yang bersamaan? We did it!  - 18 Maret 2017, Pemberian Status Anggota Biasa KM ITK kepada Angkatan 2016 Aku pernah. Di foto ini. Dari seluruh suara hati yang muncul, ada satu yang paling dominan. Aku bersyukur pernah ada di dalamnya. Seeing each other in a team for the first time Celebrating our achievement - Pantai Ambalat Kami membawa karakter yang berbeda-beda dalam mengerjakan amanah ini. Aku tak pernah lupa bagaimana dipimpin oleh menteri yang kaku, serius, tapi aku banyak belajar dari cara berfikirnya. Aku tak pernah lupa bagaimana bekerja dengan dua orang rekan yang fluktuasi keberadaannya sulit dipertahankan. Aku pasti selalu ingat bagaimana dengan sepuluh adik yang punya kepribadian kuat, stimulus tawa paling handal, rangka solid yang mantap, satuan kepala batu yang terakui loyal, dan pemicu paling rea...

Belakangan ini aku sering berfikir tentang aku ini kind of person yang seperti apa. Terkhusus dalam dua tipe, introvert atau extrovert. I dunno why but It seems like how you can handle yourself in sociality . Satu masalah yang nggak pernah selesai dalam hidupku adalah sulitnya mengontrol diri saat bersosialisasi. Ini adalah satu pemikirian yang entah kenapa juga baru muncul saat aku sudah menanggalkan angka nol dan menggantinya dengan angka 1 di umurku. Kenapa sih hal yang begini harus difikirin? Karena aku orang yang mempertimbangkan bagaimana seseorang menilai diriku terhadapnya, namun di sisi lain aku adalah orang yang lumayan cuek dengan perasaan orang lain terhadap aku memperlakukannya. Akhirnya aku mencoba untuk mencari pengklasifikasian dari diriku sendiri. Salah satu hal yang menjadi pembanding saat ini adalah teman-teman cewek disekitarku. Mereka adalah bentukan cewek yang menurukutku normal normal aja sih . Mereka ngumpul dan main bareng. Kondisi dimana aku meras...